Day 2… True Confessions

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I guess this blog will help me express my fellings…. I’m tried of trying.

i guess you can say sometimes i feel like giving up.

I laugh, i smile and I just don’t wanna get close to people because at the end of the day I know I will get hurt. People are fragile, very delicate, the more you put on an act the harder it hurts. I don’t want to disappoint but I always managing to do anyway. I guess i’m not being brave and taking life on problem at time..but I can’t run away from it either. I’m suffering a lot .. and I’m geting use to being by  myself again. I don’t want to live my house b/c I’m afraid how people will judge me so before I go any way i need makeup and to dress nice; so I won’t be looked down upon. I don’t want to socialize and talk to anyone because people make me feel uncomfortable.. the more I stay alone the harder it is to reach others. It just hurts to walk forward………………………………..Image

How i decided to make this blog….

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I’m anxious… I really have no idea what to say.. so I began with why I feel like i’m slowly digging my self in a bigger hole. People when they see me I have a huge smile or I seem very friendly but every since I came back from college; I only crave to stay inside my room and fan out. For instance, yesterday my friends were like we wanna hang out..  -__- (meanwhile I finally starte to watch the Kdrama “Flower Boy Next Door” ) and try to pull every excuse to avoid them but they decided to come over. i just wanted more alone time… I enjoy staying inside by myself for long period of times. Call me an extreme fan, however I can’t be the only one? So i made this blog to connect with the people who feel the same…..